Over the years though my thoughts & feelings about them... the awards have changed. I like them less & less each year. I like what it does in my proud heart less & less each year. Why can't the reward for a job well done just be passing onto the next grade? Why isn't that enough? Why do we push for paper or metal?
I'm asking myself too.
This was a learning year for me. For all of us. Some school years are fun... others are just the day to day... others are hard and we learn from them. This was a hard year. Conflicts hard & big falls hard & mean 4th grade girls hard. I know it's ridiculous... I KNOW IT'S RIDICULOUS but I feel like I can hardly push through these last 3 days. The thought of tomorrow morning make my stomach hurt & my eyes get all teary. It cannot get over fast enough! My middle schoolers still have finals and I have a stupid parent meeting tomorrow. Seriously???
The kids are all so different and that displayed itself hugely this year. Some get awards. Others don't. I push for their best. And I pray for huge... HUGE amounts of grace. Which thankfully Jesus is over stocked in. And whether their best is worthy of an award in the eyes of teachers/administrators... I don't care. They all get the reward of moving on to the next grade and next year the slate is clean. We can start the story new. Writing together another chapter of challenges and successes. Tests and red inked letter grades. We will pass and we will fail and we will learn.
And isn't that really the point?