My mind has been gone the past few days.
It's been floating around 'this time list year' and I just haven't known what to say.
It wasn't a horrible time...it could have been much worse, but it wasn't a great time either.
This was how it went down:
Iwas admitted to the Hosp. at 30 weeks (with high blood pressure) for testing Feb. 19th.
I went home on "semi" bed rest (O.K. sure with 4 kids...) the 20th with good test results.
Was admitted again on March 3rd at 32 weeks for a week of more tests...they let me go back home March 7th with not the best test results but with a promise I would be on STRICT bed rest.
That was a weekend and on the following Monday I went back to the office for a followup and the Dr. said I had to go back into the hospital and I had to stay until Mascot was born...
That was March 10th.
Oh, and did I mention that this whole time my husbands gallbladder was slowly dieing a painful death... He had it removed about a month after we brought Mascot home.
By this time my 2 youngest kids had been sent to stay with my husbands parents. QB and Receiver were both in school so they had to stay here and different family members helped out with them.
Mascot was born 5 days later. I was induced on the 14th but she wouldn't budge so I had a c-section on the afternoon of the 15th.
She was little but strong.

She came in just over 4 lb. She needed a little help but not much. I had to be on some pretty strong meds for the first 24 hours so I didn't even get to see her until the next day, but her dad spent a lot of time with her.

It took the Dr's. a week to regulate my meds so I got to stay just down the hall from her for the whole first week. It was really nice. My mom would bring my kids up to see me after school and I was able to get a decent amount of rest...

This picture was take the day after she was born.

This is how I would find her most times when I would come in. Eyes open just waiting...
When I saw her the first time the first thing that popped into my head was
Psalm 139: 1-10
1O Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
2You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
4Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O Lord.
5You hem me in - behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me. 6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
7Where can I go from you Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
8If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there;
9If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.

I remember praying about the people the Lord would put in our path... and honestly, I was hoping the Lord would allow us to be a light for Him... that we would somehow be a blessing to someone around us. And I did take as many opportunities as possible to be a light for Him. But it's funny how God used the people he put around us to minister to us. We had the opportunity to celebrate with one such family just last week as they celebrated their son's 1st birthday. I would encourage you to head over to their blog,
Cort and Cohen and see how God is using this family and the miracle of their son, Cohen.

I also look back at the way the Lord orchestrated even the staff around us...
When HC walked into the NICU the first time to see Mascot the Dr. that was working with her was a guy he went to school with... and one of the nurses in the "step down" room of the NICU goes to church with my parents. It was so awesome to see God's hand at every turn.
I remember being almost sad when it was time to take her home because I knew that time of quiet resting in the Lord was coming to an end. Not that I don't rest in Him always...but when in the middle of the storm, there is such a feeling of peace...I wouldn't wish anyone to have to go through the NICU experience...however I wouldn't change a thing about that month and a half either.

As with all my children I pray she chooses the Lord and her hearts desire is to serve him.

She is now crawling everywhere and trying to make her voice heard among the other 4...

She loves to sing...any time there is music she breaks out in her version of song...
But the very simple, truthful tune of Jesus Loves Me will quiet her right down...
I would sing it to her every time we were together in the NICU and still to this day it will calm and quiet her. I love that.
I look forward to the years ahead while cherishing the present time with her.

She's a joy and a gift to our family and I count it a privilege to be her mom.